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mouth first . into the dust

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walking in a silver net is how i live every day.
it is like sitting against the dark walls at a monstrous dance
as the others pulse to tuneless rhythms
and you just sit and take it all in
here,
i walk step by step over silver nets
carefulcareful
do not break it
for i will fall into the sea of unconsecrated fish
[as long as they do not smell me, i will live.]
they tell me i am not living
i am only surviving on my silver net
they do not see i still have a pulse as the days shuffle by

.

you see, i am only alive when i pour these words into ripped paper
from a black-ink pen
and i am always so close to falling through my imagined silver net
always wanting the words to come stumbling out of my mouth
and for all the fish to race to my scent
as if it were a red beacon
my blood in the water .
i think these things  
and then i take them back
hiding in my loving net
[the one that only exists in the dimensions you will never see]  
there are millions of words that have tumbled through those dimensions
and are soon forgotten
like a wind and a wave or two
like a bird in the sand that you spy
and it just flies away,
dis - a - ppear - in . g

.

this is for those thousands upon millions
of pretty little words
i have wanted to say
as long as i have lived

this is for their vanishing
never leaving a single shard behind
[maybe there are specks of dust for each one, and as they pile, my mind is fill-
ing with them.]
soon this dust will come falling out of my mouth
and i promise, darling
there will be no stopping it
and my tongue will be heavy
possessed by this phantom
taking over me

-

there are times when
i hate my words
with all the stings that hold me in
a weaving
and the silver netting that catches them
there are people who hate all the words
and who would find them
as they escape to paper

meaningless

the
dust
will
build
.
it
is
falling
out

now


[and i plunge into the water]
usually i tell stories.
this is something far more personal
[i hope you like it?]

i'll call you tomorrow
then you'll escape
forgot in your haste
your place for tomorrow
and you need to take
three pills each day
otherwise the virus will surely gain
travel through your veins
your heart
your brain
ending all the live that you seem to know


janet by kiss kiss.

go listen to it, they're so good and they don't get anywhere near enough love :heart:
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KtheCard's avatar
for the love of cate blanchett, this is fantastic.
there are seriously no words to describe it, so i'll suffice with: thank you so much for sharing.