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i stay by myself in the perfection of solitude,
the soundless-ness of being in the world without
another soul to penetrate that thin blanket
of lonely peace--
if only life could be like this,
like the mind of this dream
piercing us through and through.
in my lonely fever i shiver,
wishing for another possible sack
of flesh to warm my own,
but then i remember
flesh speaks and thinks and hates
so naturally i leave it.
i leave it all.
the pains of breathing and living
drown me with their potency
but i reject them with cold fevers
and the impersonal sort of bliss that
follows you in the evenings until morning
flashes its ugly teeth
until rain spits and snarls
upon peaceful schools of people.
nature wants us dead, every one.
and by god i used to pray before
i let sleep take me each night,
and i swear i'd never been so alone
as when i talked to the sky like a
breathing friend.
it ignored my bursts of begging
but it did send me to sleep
so quick it felt like dying.
i stopped lusting for the care of
an open womb of sky,
of the empty noise of night.
silently breathing in enough
solitude to haunt the oldest of graves,
i took it upon myself to join them
in the quiet truth of not existing.
i put myself to sleep,
a sleep deeper than any god
could grant.
numbest of all.
the soundless-ness of being in the world without
another soul to penetrate that thin blanket
of lonely peace--
if only life could be like this,
like the mind of this dream
piercing us through and through.
in my lonely fever i shiver,
wishing for another possible sack
of flesh to warm my own,
but then i remember
flesh speaks and thinks and hates
so naturally i leave it.
i leave it all.
the pains of breathing and living
drown me with their potency
but i reject them with cold fevers
and the impersonal sort of bliss that
follows you in the evenings until morning
flashes its ugly teeth
until rain spits and snarls
upon peaceful schools of people.
nature wants us dead, every one.
and by god i used to pray before
i let sleep take me each night,
and i swear i'd never been so alone
as when i talked to the sky like a
breathing friend.
it ignored my bursts of begging
but it did send me to sleep
so quick it felt like dying.
i stopped lusting for the care of
an open womb of sky,
of the empty noise of night.
silently breathing in enough
solitude to haunt the oldest of graves,
i took it upon myself to join them
in the quiet truth of not existing.
i put myself to sleep,
a sleep deeper than any god
could grant.
numbest of all.
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your soul + my lungs.
i remember when we lived inside the
snow globe sitting in the toy store,
smiling and laughing because
every day was christmas, and when
things got shaky, it was okay;
white would swirl all around us,
setting moods for stories and all
the i love yous we could stand
until the day the toy store closed
and no one came to shake our home
we realized the snow was only
flecks of painted sand, and so we
sat in melancholic silence
until we noticed we'd be breathing
water our entire lives, and then we choked,
and then we died
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this is now
that was then:
i muttered your name while his hand was down my dress.
told him i couldn't, shouldn't, wouldn't
but he kissed away my syllables as the absence ate away at my heart and soul
this is now:
i miss you when brief flashes of nostalgia
overwhelm and contort my senses,
but you don't deserve it
that was then:
you were my daily routine, ranking higher than breathing
i wanted to inhale you like the cigarettes you regularly smoked
pledged forever and always and carved your name behind my eyelids
"i love you", "ok".
i should have known it was never going
to be okay.
this is now:
you cross my mind from time to time,
and i
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jamais
the truth, as staunch and without ornament
as I can make it,
is that I did not want your love,
your voice rattling like the hoary whispers
of stars;
your dreams (rustling like cattails
and half-extended to meet mine)
were as foreign to me
as moonlight, concealed
in its various robes.
your sucking fireflies,
neon mothish words meant to draw me in,
flurried uselessly about me.
but now that your attempted eloquence
is more akin to the wick of a lamp,
charred and drowning in oil,
I may vaguely nod my head.
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i don't really know what i'm doing anymore, i don't really know anything about myself anymore, i just know this feeling of discomfort
i don't really know what i'm doing anymore, i don't really know anything about myself anymore, i just know this feeling of discomfort
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and by god i used to pray before
i let sleep take me each night,
and i swear i'd never been so alone
as when i talked to the sky like a
breathing friend.
you tore my heart to bits with this, sweetheart!
very very precious, painful, and evocative of emotions that some (like me and others who can relate) keep in the depths of their hearts
i let sleep take me each night,
and i swear i'd never been so alone
as when i talked to the sky like a
breathing friend.
you tore my heart to bits with this, sweetheart!
very very precious, painful, and evocative of emotions that some (like me and others who can relate) keep in the depths of their hearts